Sick

uhuhk..uhuk...i feel so tired with all this stuff....damn...i hope this tragedy will be over quickly but now i feel that trouble come more big and more then make my mind blow to the sky...my heart is feel burn and my body so weakness. what should i do ? Never through to my head to kill myself without pain and dying…"wew...is that so? You know what that pain can be warning,a test, or maybe the punishment from ALLAH SWT..Maybe this question is always come to my life.

i want to say insyaallah when that pain is come for satisfied depend on where we see them..that statement when sick are warning, a test, or the punishment not always wrong..but we must see in different ways
For some people, sick was mean:
- Less of time from work (did not come to office), automatically when we sick is no need to thinking about the job. That’s enough when he thinking about his pain and try to healthy again... So that sick was satisfied because we didn’t must to thinking about office job
- We sick we die. And for many people, think about death will be try to more to close to the God. That mean is we will give more time with Allah SWT, telling the problem, pray and help request from Allah SWT. So, that sick was satisfied because we can more close with Allah SWT
- If we sick, we will be
o Visited from other people. So sick was satisfied because can make friendship get much more stronger
o More closely with family (because care). So sick was satisfied because we can feel love each other from what we have is our family
o Feed with best nutrition from usually. So sick was satisfied because we can eat with more best nutrition
But from all that reason when we mention that, I feel touch and freeze when I read article about blind man. That article telling about lady who is blind when was child. One day, when technology is come to more modern so can do operation about her sickness. When n that request come to her, she denied that. The reason is “let this eyes blind because with this I can feel much more closely with Allah SWT and always say thank you with what I got now. If I am not blind again (because operation), maybe I can be disaffected and greedy about give from God. Maybe I can make sins with my new eyes. So let me blind…”
Owh…so greatest of love from this lady to her God, until she can feel her blind is proof of love from Allah SWT to her.
Rasululloh SAW said that “I admire someone who has goodness in every business. If he got pleasure, he always thank you (to Allah SWT) so the goodness always come to inside that. If he got a trouble, he always surrenders (and do that with patient) and thinking always have goodness inside of that.” (HR.Muslim)