Once upon a time live one younger people, we can call him zan. Zan is like other ordinary people and always live alone throw away from real world and join with the loneliness, I don’t know why but maybe he already for that. But all of that had to be change after when someone come to his heart, someone who love and care to him until she was going to leave because some mistake and make hate her with himself. He felt down like women who left him without anything until his heart difficult to sense again. Three years pass away but hope to find her never been lost, always try to find her in his head and what he get? Ah maybe we shouldn’t ask that again. All of situation in the past like horror make him full of stress and suck with this world but life must go on like water on the river never stop to let it flow until stop and then dry, don’t waste your time because that was a give from god, the question is can zan do that? That answer is maybe…
Sometime he want to ended his life but it can’t be happen if god don’t want it because that was a big sin and hard to forgiveness if that not our fate. Yeah… fate can’t be change without hardworking and big spirit to be change, no one can help except himself. So what suppose to do to forgot all sickness and joins his life like normally because he feel not ready for that, he doesn’t have someone to laugh and trigger his spirit when feeling down. All what zan need is someone who can understand and care to him. Memory of someone who live in loneliness and so stupid to understand is some unique story to telling again and the truth is he can’t accepted even with his head who is the girl is walk away from his side.
Stuck on his head to release that feeling and make him falling to the ground prison with all people who hated this life and join with ruthless, like mud with all glory and lay stick together or like blood in this body can’t release that.
When his head are controlling, he write something
Looser that’s what I say to myself
Because my ego make heart sick with sweetest word
No one know that what I feel because for what they should know
All what happen just let it flow like tears from my eyes
Am I a looser?
Just can write and my ego make look so stupid?
Until the women who I loved can walked me away
I said to myself
Heart of such a big liar like more than worst word
Cover with a big smile
Maybe that just my feeling but tears come out without control
I try to hold my tears but I can’t
Even that so hard but I always try to stand up for not hurting anyone…..
Again……
After finish write that he feel his eye burn and tear of sad coming out warm in his cheek, he grab then slash and throw away without seeing even just a little. All what he can are crying, laugh alone and curse of his life, nothing he can do to throw away the sadness. But he start to thinking and said to himself “what was I’ve done? Fate can’t be change! Fate for me is still alone!” that statement use to make people around of him not going to be hurt again.
“Maybe tomorrow come to much better!” in mind of hopeless. Maybe if he tries to be change, he will get even better but what he has done is nothing.
Sometime he want to ended his life but it can’t be happen if god don’t want it because that was a big sin and hard to forgiveness if that not our fate. Yeah… fate can’t be change without hardworking and big spirit to be change, no one can help except himself. So what suppose to do to forgot all sickness and joins his life like normally because he feel not ready for that, he doesn’t have someone to laugh and trigger his spirit when feeling down. All what zan need is someone who can understand and care to him. Memory of someone who live in loneliness and so stupid to understand is some unique story to telling again and the truth is he can’t accepted even with his head who is the girl is walk away from his side.
Stuck on his head to release that feeling and make him falling to the ground prison with all people who hated this life and join with ruthless, like mud with all glory and lay stick together or like blood in this body can’t release that.
When his head are controlling, he write something
Looser that’s what I say to myself
Because my ego make heart sick with sweetest word
No one know that what I feel because for what they should know
All what happen just let it flow like tears from my eyes
Am I a looser?
Just can write and my ego make look so stupid?
Until the women who I loved can walked me away
I said to myself
Heart of such a big liar like more than worst word
Cover with a big smile
Maybe that just my feeling but tears come out without control
I try to hold my tears but I can’t
Even that so hard but I always try to stand up for not hurting anyone…..
Again……
After finish write that he feel his eye burn and tear of sad coming out warm in his cheek, he grab then slash and throw away without seeing even just a little. All what he can are crying, laugh alone and curse of his life, nothing he can do to throw away the sadness. But he start to thinking and said to himself “what was I’ve done? Fate can’t be change! Fate for me is still alone!” that statement use to make people around of him not going to be hurt again.
“Maybe tomorrow come to much better!” in mind of hopeless. Maybe if he tries to be change, he will get even better but what he has done is nothing.
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