Selasa, 23 Desember 2008
Selasa, 02 Desember 2008
Call
Waiting for your call, I'm sick, call I'm angry, Call I'm desperate for your voice. Listening to the song we used to sing in the somewhere, do you remember butterfly ? Early Summer, it's playing on repeat, just like when we would meet.
Stripped and pollished, I am new, I am fresh, I am feeling so ambitious, you and me, flesh to flesh. Cause every breath that you will take when you are sitting next to me, will bring life into my deepest hopes, What's your fantasy? (What's your, what's your...)
Cause I was born to tell you I love you and I am torn to do what I have to, to make you mine stay with me tonight. And I'm tired of being all alone, and this solitary moment makes me want to come back home (I know everything you wanted isn't anything you have)
Stripped and pollished, I am new, I am fresh, I am feeling so ambitious, you and me, flesh to flesh. Cause every breath that you will take when you are sitting next to me, will bring life into my deepest hopes, What's your fantasy? (What's your, what's your...)
Cause I was born to tell you I love you and I am torn to do what I have to, to make you mine stay with me tonight. And I'm tired of being all alone, and this solitary moment makes me want to come back home (I know everything you wanted isn't anything you have)
Selasa, 25 November 2008
Under Pressure
Argh...i feel the pressure around me,headache me from all that thing until make me feel want to blow up and spit to the death. That pressure come over and over with day by day never stop. I want to end this problem with my life but if think with the logic that is useless. One way to less that pressure with resolve the source is problem. Pressure come because the problem and problem come because the request so we must be careful to approve the request.
People said that human grow up because can resolve the problem with the right thing because the problem can make human think to find that resolve. So same with the pressure, someone who always take it easy and wait to resolve the problem will felt the maximum pressure. That is consequence for lazy people, if they can little diligent and concentrate to the time it will be can less or nothing about that pressure.
By the way, research proof different like when people live without pressure they will live easily. But with the same time when they live lazy the problem come without permission so if they wont to continued that situation, they must resolve that problem even come without stop. So we can pull the conclusion that human can not live without pressure even they try to avoid that but that pressure will become with the bigger, the pressure come different just because that capacity of human to take that.
Like old man say " Great power will become with the great responsibility"
People said that human grow up because can resolve the problem with the right thing because the problem can make human think to find that resolve. So same with the pressure, someone who always take it easy and wait to resolve the problem will felt the maximum pressure. That is consequence for lazy people, if they can little diligent and concentrate to the time it will be can less or nothing about that pressure.
By the way, research proof different like when people live without pressure they will live easily. But with the same time when they live lazy the problem come without permission so if they wont to continued that situation, they must resolve that problem even come without stop. So we can pull the conclusion that human can not live without pressure even they try to avoid that but that pressure will become with the bigger, the pressure come different just because that capacity of human to take that.
Like old man say " Great power will become with the great responsibility"
Minggu, 16 November 2008
Sick
uhuhk..uhuk...i feel so tired with all this stuff....damn...i hope this tragedy will be over quickly but now i feel that trouble come more big and more then make my mind blow to the sky...my heart is feel burn and my body so weakness. what should i do ? Never through to my head to kill myself without pain and dying…"wew...is that so? You know what that pain can be warning,a test, or maybe the punishment from ALLAH SWT..Maybe this question is always come to my life.
i want to say insyaallah when that pain is come for satisfied depend on where we see them..that statement when sick are warning, a test, or the punishment not always wrong..but we must see in different ways
For some people, sick was mean:
- Less of time from work (did not come to office), automatically when we sick is no need to thinking about the job. That’s enough when he thinking about his pain and try to healthy again... So that sick was satisfied because we didn’t must to thinking about office job
- We sick we die. And for many people, think about death will be try to more to close to the God. That mean is we will give more time with Allah SWT, telling the problem, pray and help request from Allah SWT. So, that sick was satisfied because we can more close with Allah SWT
- If we sick, we will be
o Visited from other people. So sick was satisfied because can make friendship get much more stronger
o More closely with family (because care). So sick was satisfied because we can feel love each other from what we have is our family
o Feed with best nutrition from usually. So sick was satisfied because we can eat with more best nutrition
But from all that reason when we mention that, I feel touch and freeze when I read article about blind man. That article telling about lady who is blind when was child. One day, when technology is come to more modern so can do operation about her sickness. When n that request come to her, she denied that. The reason is “let this eyes blind because with this I can feel much more closely with Allah SWT and always say thank you with what I got now. If I am not blind again (because operation), maybe I can be disaffected and greedy about give from God. Maybe I can make sins with my new eyes. So let me blind…”
Owh…so greatest of love from this lady to her God, until she can feel her blind is proof of love from Allah SWT to her.
Rasululloh SAW said that “I admire someone who has goodness in every business. If he got pleasure, he always thank you (to Allah SWT) so the goodness always come to inside that. If he got a trouble, he always surrenders (and do that with patient) and thinking always have goodness inside of that.” (HR.Muslim)
i want to say insyaallah when that pain is come for satisfied depend on where we see them..that statement when sick are warning, a test, or the punishment not always wrong..but we must see in different ways
For some people, sick was mean:
- Less of time from work (did not come to office), automatically when we sick is no need to thinking about the job. That’s enough when he thinking about his pain and try to healthy again... So that sick was satisfied because we didn’t must to thinking about office job
- We sick we die. And for many people, think about death will be try to more to close to the God. That mean is we will give more time with Allah SWT, telling the problem, pray and help request from Allah SWT. So, that sick was satisfied because we can more close with Allah SWT
- If we sick, we will be
o Visited from other people. So sick was satisfied because can make friendship get much more stronger
o More closely with family (because care). So sick was satisfied because we can feel love each other from what we have is our family
o Feed with best nutrition from usually. So sick was satisfied because we can eat with more best nutrition
But from all that reason when we mention that, I feel touch and freeze when I read article about blind man. That article telling about lady who is blind when was child. One day, when technology is come to more modern so can do operation about her sickness. When n that request come to her, she denied that. The reason is “let this eyes blind because with this I can feel much more closely with Allah SWT and always say thank you with what I got now. If I am not blind again (because operation), maybe I can be disaffected and greedy about give from God. Maybe I can make sins with my new eyes. So let me blind…”
Owh…so greatest of love from this lady to her God, until she can feel her blind is proof of love from Allah SWT to her.
Rasululloh SAW said that “I admire someone who has goodness in every business. If he got pleasure, he always thank you (to Allah SWT) so the goodness always come to inside that. If he got a trouble, he always surrenders (and do that with patient) and thinking always have goodness inside of that.” (HR.Muslim)
Senin, 10 November 2008
Hate
long ago before we know the time..feel something like that is very urgent in every human kind..hate is some feeling who we know is dislike to each other because some reason..not only for human even to the god..i don't know why people hate to each other because in this beautiful world is no matter what is the problem but something i know is i feel that hate now to someone or something..hate in this heart burned to all what we see or like to the curse...are this human fate is to hate each other? i don't think so because human created by god to love each other, care to each other between all god creature especially to nature..so why god create bad feeling like hate..the answer is to enliven the world because if we doesn't know about that we feel so bored and life will be suck..Hatred or hate is a word that describes intense feelings of dislike. It can be used in a wide variety of contexts, from hatred of inanimate objects to hatred of other people.
Philosophers have offered many influential definitions of hatred. Rene Descartes viewed hate as an awareness that something is bad, combined with an urge to withdraw from it. Baruch Spinoza defined hate as a type of pain that is due to an external cause. Aristotle viewed hate as a desire for the annihilation of an object that is incurable by time. Finally, I believed that hate is an irreducible feeling that is not definable at all.
In psychology, Sigmund Freud defined hate as an ego state that wishes to destroy the source of its unhappiness. In a more contemporary definition, the Penguin Dictionary of Psychology defines hate as a "deep, enduring, intense emotion expressing animosity, anger, and hostility towards a person, group, or object". Because hatred is believed to be long-lasting, many psychologists consider it to be more of an attitude or disposition than a (temporary) emotional state (see rage).
Some neural correlates of hate have been uncovered in an fMRI study. In this study, these correlates include increased activity in the medial frontal gyrus, right putamen, bilaterally in premotor cortex, in the frontal pole and bilaterally in the medial insula of the human brain.
Philosophers have offered many influential definitions of hatred. Rene Descartes viewed hate as an awareness that something is bad, combined with an urge to withdraw from it. Baruch Spinoza defined hate as a type of pain that is due to an external cause. Aristotle viewed hate as a desire for the annihilation of an object that is incurable by time. Finally, I believed that hate is an irreducible feeling that is not definable at all.
In psychology, Sigmund Freud defined hate as an ego state that wishes to destroy the source of its unhappiness. In a more contemporary definition, the Penguin Dictionary of Psychology defines hate as a "deep, enduring, intense emotion expressing animosity, anger, and hostility towards a person, group, or object". Because hatred is believed to be long-lasting, many psychologists consider it to be more of an attitude or disposition than a (temporary) emotional state (see rage).
Some neural correlates of hate have been uncovered in an fMRI study. In this study, these correlates include increased activity in the medial frontal gyrus, right putamen, bilaterally in premotor cortex, in the frontal pole and bilaterally in the medial insula of the human brain.
Selasa, 04 November 2008
Care
Care,,the meaningless of life is watch and help people without pay or hope to something,all people can say love and care so easely like we breath but doesn't know the meaning of that. for me love and care can not to split because care is part of love even that make we confuse but lets thinking a while. love is so huge and want to keep or hope to get anything is so big, if we fell that our ego will talk that was mine not yours.
"I love you", is the same thing with "i care to you" because love is bond with the people who we love. even that is animal or something is the same thing.
maybe we cant use that to all the creature but even that different. human feel is more deeper to meaning and response that. that is unique manner because excepting to keeping touch, love to each other is free to anything. even that free from word "mine". when care reach the top for the real meaning, huge of love will ready to release all that thing.. because love not just ego to have what we want but care and protect what we like and ready to lose that, that was difficult step. Love is hard to do, don't talk about love if you still control them or still jealously or just want little satisfied from that. sick was the consequence to reach the happiness and glory of love, sincerity, and graceful is the key to reach that because love is not fetter but release to get happiness.
Minggu, 26 Oktober 2008
Fate
Once upon a time live one younger people, we can call him zan. Zan is like other ordinary people and always live alone throw away from real world and join with the loneliness, I don’t know why but maybe he already for that. But all of that had to be change after when someone come to his heart, someone who love and care to him until she was going to leave because some mistake and make hate her with himself. He felt down like women who left him without anything until his heart difficult to sense again. Three years pass away but hope to find her never been lost, always try to find her in his head and what he get? Ah maybe we shouldn’t ask that again. All of situation in the past like horror make him full of stress and suck with this world but life must go on like water on the river never stop to let it flow until stop and then dry, don’t waste your time because that was a give from god, the question is can zan do that? That answer is maybe…
Sometime he want to ended his life but it can’t be happen if god don’t want it because that was a big sin and hard to forgiveness if that not our fate. Yeah… fate can’t be change without hardworking and big spirit to be change, no one can help except himself. So what suppose to do to forgot all sickness and joins his life like normally because he feel not ready for that, he doesn’t have someone to laugh and trigger his spirit when feeling down. All what zan need is someone who can understand and care to him. Memory of someone who live in loneliness and so stupid to understand is some unique story to telling again and the truth is he can’t accepted even with his head who is the girl is walk away from his side.
Stuck on his head to release that feeling and make him falling to the ground prison with all people who hated this life and join with ruthless, like mud with all glory and lay stick together or like blood in this body can’t release that.
When his head are controlling, he write something
Looser that’s what I say to myself
Because my ego make heart sick with sweetest word
No one know that what I feel because for what they should know
All what happen just let it flow like tears from my eyes
Am I a looser?
Just can write and my ego make look so stupid?
Until the women who I loved can walked me away
I said to myself
Heart of such a big liar like more than worst word
Cover with a big smile
Maybe that just my feeling but tears come out without control
I try to hold my tears but I can’t
Even that so hard but I always try to stand up for not hurting anyone…..
Again……
After finish write that he feel his eye burn and tear of sad coming out warm in his cheek, he grab then slash and throw away without seeing even just a little. All what he can are crying, laugh alone and curse of his life, nothing he can do to throw away the sadness. But he start to thinking and said to himself “what was I’ve done? Fate can’t be change! Fate for me is still alone!” that statement use to make people around of him not going to be hurt again.
“Maybe tomorrow come to much better!” in mind of hopeless. Maybe if he tries to be change, he will get even better but what he has done is nothing.
Sometime he want to ended his life but it can’t be happen if god don’t want it because that was a big sin and hard to forgiveness if that not our fate. Yeah… fate can’t be change without hardworking and big spirit to be change, no one can help except himself. So what suppose to do to forgot all sickness and joins his life like normally because he feel not ready for that, he doesn’t have someone to laugh and trigger his spirit when feeling down. All what zan need is someone who can understand and care to him. Memory of someone who live in loneliness and so stupid to understand is some unique story to telling again and the truth is he can’t accepted even with his head who is the girl is walk away from his side.
Stuck on his head to release that feeling and make him falling to the ground prison with all people who hated this life and join with ruthless, like mud with all glory and lay stick together or like blood in this body can’t release that.
When his head are controlling, he write something
Looser that’s what I say to myself
Because my ego make heart sick with sweetest word
No one know that what I feel because for what they should know
All what happen just let it flow like tears from my eyes
Am I a looser?
Just can write and my ego make look so stupid?
Until the women who I loved can walked me away
I said to myself
Heart of such a big liar like more than worst word
Cover with a big smile
Maybe that just my feeling but tears come out without control
I try to hold my tears but I can’t
Even that so hard but I always try to stand up for not hurting anyone…..
Again……
After finish write that he feel his eye burn and tear of sad coming out warm in his cheek, he grab then slash and throw away without seeing even just a little. All what he can are crying, laugh alone and curse of his life, nothing he can do to throw away the sadness. But he start to thinking and said to himself “what was I’ve done? Fate can’t be change! Fate for me is still alone!” that statement use to make people around of him not going to be hurt again.
“Maybe tomorrow come to much better!” in mind of hopeless. Maybe if he tries to be change, he will get even better but what he has done is nothing.
Selasa, 21 Oktober 2008
Punishment
Once upon a time in other country, we can say Ita’s family is very busy because her father and mother always never stay at home or going to work so Ita always stay at home with babysitter. Ita we can say still baby because her age is three years old. Because she was a little like other child, she always try to find some new. When she plays with scratch on the ground and makes some picture, she found a nail and then after finish scratches the ground she tries to her father’s new car. So maybe we can see that new car full of scratch.
When her father going home, she show that scratch on father’s new car with proud but what she get? She get a really big anger and some hit from her father but the first person who get punishment is babysitter because can’t care Ita. After enough with the babysitter, he tries to hit ita’s hand with all the stuff around him. Start from ruler, wood, etc with a really-really big anger.
“Please stop….I…I’m sorry fathers...Please forgive me... It’s really hurt...Please stop!” ita scream with hold her hurt and her hand start bleeding. The mother just quiet not was doing anything like she agrees with that husband punishment.
After enough with that he tells the babysitter to pick ita to her room. With sad the babysitter picks her to that room. When she takes a bath in noon, she screams with big crying hold that hurt. On the next day ita’s hand starting big not normal, but her parent’s going to work ignore that. Even when the babysitter told them, the mother said “try to use balsam”.
Day by day going to until ita’s body get hot because her hand is get infected. But when she parents know that, they just said that to use medicine to make ita’s body not hot again. When the night come, that sick become worst. Their parents get panic so pick her to the hospital.
The result of diagnostic said that hot because from pain on her hand get infected and must be amputation. After a week in hospital, the doctor said that “there’s no choice”
Doctor tell to them why ita’s hand must get amputate because have infected and come to be more worst until can kill her. ” it can’t be helper until her hand is amputated”.
When they hear this, ita’s parent like hit by lightning with the tears come out and their hand shacked when they sign the agreement to amputation the hand of one beloved daughter.
After that operation is done, ita wake up with hold the hurt from her hand and confuse see that hand covering with white bandage. And more shocked when she was seeing her parents and babysitter crying with hold her pain, ita said to her parents, ”dad…mom, I promise will not doing that again…” I love you daddy, love you mom, and love you Ms Lou. I’m sorry because scratch that car!” their parents after hear that words come more sad.
“Daddy, can I take my hands now? Why you take that? I promise won’t do that again. How can I play with my entire friend if my hands take with you? Please…mom…dad…give my hand’s back…or can I loan that? I just want to apologize and shack hand with all of you!”
Their parents can’t talk anything, they just feel deep sorry in their heart.
When her father going home, she show that scratch on father’s new car with proud but what she get? She get a really big anger and some hit from her father but the first person who get punishment is babysitter because can’t care Ita. After enough with the babysitter, he tries to hit ita’s hand with all the stuff around him. Start from ruler, wood, etc with a really-really big anger.
“Please stop….I…I’m sorry fathers...Please forgive me... It’s really hurt...Please stop!” ita scream with hold her hurt and her hand start bleeding. The mother just quiet not was doing anything like she agrees with that husband punishment.
After enough with that he tells the babysitter to pick ita to her room. With sad the babysitter picks her to that room. When she takes a bath in noon, she screams with big crying hold that hurt. On the next day ita’s hand starting big not normal, but her parent’s going to work ignore that. Even when the babysitter told them, the mother said “try to use balsam”.
Day by day going to until ita’s body get hot because her hand is get infected. But when she parents know that, they just said that to use medicine to make ita’s body not hot again. When the night come, that sick become worst. Their parents get panic so pick her to the hospital.
The result of diagnostic said that hot because from pain on her hand get infected and must be amputation. After a week in hospital, the doctor said that “there’s no choice”
Doctor tell to them why ita’s hand must get amputate because have infected and come to be more worst until can kill her. ” it can’t be helper until her hand is amputated”.
When they hear this, ita’s parent like hit by lightning with the tears come out and their hand shacked when they sign the agreement to amputation the hand of one beloved daughter.
After that operation is done, ita wake up with hold the hurt from her hand and confuse see that hand covering with white bandage. And more shocked when she was seeing her parents and babysitter crying with hold her pain, ita said to her parents, ”dad…mom, I promise will not doing that again…” I love you daddy, love you mom, and love you Ms Lou. I’m sorry because scratch that car!” their parents after hear that words come more sad.
“Daddy, can I take my hands now? Why you take that? I promise won’t do that again. How can I play with my entire friend if my hands take with you? Please…mom…dad…give my hand’s back…or can I loan that? I just want to apologize and shack hand with all of you!”
Their parents can’t talk anything, they just feel deep sorry in their heart.
Minggu, 12 Oktober 2008
Dont Make Yourself Enemy
As good as jihad is someone doing that to himself and his passion. (HR. Bukhori Muslim)
*)Brave Heart
Once of all behaviour who is the most pride from best friend of rasul SAW is brave heart. Because not anyone can reach that easely. Someday Zaid Bin Aslam come to Abu Dujanah Al-Anshari because his illnes until to die. He seen his face so peacefull and brightly. He asking what happen to him, Abu Dujanah said "nothing the best who is trully from our heart except two things: First is never talk empty. Second is nothing from our hearth to vengeance anyone ". Same word to Zaid Bin Aslam from Iyas Bin Muawiyah "The trully from him is never said bad things about anyone and his heart is so pure". Like Fuadhail Ibn I'yadh said "The trully best thing from us is not because we pray or shaum, but because we can be patient from our soul and have a brave heart to take anything and pure from heart to help anyone".
*)Good Thinking
All good thing between of book who can take for the real moslem is structure to thinking of good in relationship and covering other faulth as fast as you can before anything else know about that.
Source of that, are :
- This method was almost using in Al-Quran and Al-Hadist. Allah said:
"Ya ayyuhalladzina amanu, stay away from bad thinking because that was a sins (QS. Al-Hujarat : 12)
"Why all of you when you heard about that lie cannot good thinking about yourself, and (why not) said :"this is such a big lier."(QS. An-Nur : 12)
Rasulullah SAW. said :"Dont be thinking of bad, stay away from that because that is the worst word." (HR. Bukhori dan Muslim)
His sabda :" For all people who said believe to the god in mouth but not in heart. Dont you talking about issued of moslem and dont saw they bad things. Because that people who search the bad thing of his brother, Allah will open his bad things even he was hide that in horse stomach". (HR. Abu Daud, Tirmidzi and Ahmad)
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